sharon

today is my written paper for my final exams. i'm so darn frustrated with myself, u know how it feels when u feel soo stupid u wanna kick urself real hard? that's how i feel right now. it's not like i do not know the answers to the questions, i don't know what i was thinking. i kinda just froze and when i got home and everythin replayed in my head and i realised i could have done so much better not failed. i do not know the results to my written exam yet but i there is a high possibility that i might fail. everything depends on my OSCE on wed, if i do well maybe.. just maybe i might manage to pull thru and graduate afterall

of all times, it has to be the finals. if i fail this time around, it means that i have to re-sit for it and miss the convocation with my batchmates. even if i do pass the re-sit, i will be attending convocation with students of other batches. not the ones i share classes with for the past 4 years, not those that understand the pain i went thru just to graduate as a freaking pharmacist.

i have a lot going on in my head now. apart from the stress from my exams, a lot of things happened to me lately. my friend crashed my car. i got called to see the dean. i was nearly brought to the disciplinary board. i got involved with some guy i shouldn't have. basically my whole life is in a mess right now, i just need to pick myself up and set everything straight again.

but then again there are decisions i made that i haven't pondered upon. i still have questions to be answered.

anyways, ying!! i saw ur dad in kl. haha. he was in capsquare. but he doesn't know me, so i din say hi. lol..