i'm so lazy. i woke up at 12 this morning, did my mask and then went out for lunch. got back at about 2 and here i am addicted to playing hearts and not doing my work. sometimes i can't understand how my mind works. i was so hardworkin the other day when i had to rush to meet my deadline, but upon hearing that my presentation was postponed to monday i just relaxed. i've a feeling i'm gonna keep this pace until sun night and naturally i'm gonna screw it up again. sighs. this is just soo.. ME

my bro is in genting right now for a holiday. he arrived on thurs and he's leaving tmr. the initial plan was for me to drive up to join him on thurs and i'll leave on fri. i cancelled on him when my lecturer asked us to present for the 2nd time on friday, manatau no postponed to mon. i just found out last night, no point for me to go up today because i need to drive down to seremban tmr morning to look at the houses we're gonna stay in for our hospital attachments. this is one thing i'm not lookin forward to, SEREMBAN. next sem my expenditure is gonna kill me, i think i should eat maggi mee 3 times daily. i've to fork out for my gas, toll, pay both sides rent and internet? wow..  *faints*

my apoptosis kit for my research hasn't arrived yet. i'm not surprised that it's delayed because it will be shipped from the uk but it's been 3 weeks! uggh. my research is supposed to end in 2 weeks' time and we haven't even tested on it yet. god. right now we might even change kits, which means a new set of protocols and all. sigh. i hate how unpredictable research is..

i hate how research can be sooo taxing and the next moment u're soo free that u have literally nth to do. of coz when u have no practical work, u're stupposed to be writing ur thesis or preparing for ur presentation. however this doesnt apply to ppl like me, i'll just laze and laze and laze. uggh. to the point i kinda despise myself for being so lazy but yet i don't do anything about it.

my presentation on my research topic is finally over. now what? i've a passed onw big hurdle for the semester but there's a bigger one coming. THESIS. we'll never finish anything. there's nth for me to look forward this semester. NO SEMESTER BREAK! can u name me a course with no sem break? sighs. it's not like i have 3 semesters a year, i only have 2 and yet i do not have a sem break this sem 

i've already completed my lab work and presented my research topic. there's 3 weeks to the deadline for my thesis submission and i've only done 10% of my thesis i think. i know there isn't much time to do the write-up that sums my whole semester's worth of lab work but i need a break, like seriously. because right after i hand in my thesis, i'm supposed to start hospital attachment in seremban. whoever said that final year is easy must have had an affair with their lecturers or something. uggh..

looking on the bright side, i'm going back to pg this weekend! i can't wait to be home, relax and not worry about a single thing. although i seriously need to buckle up and get my dissertation done during this 3-week period. plus, ill  be going to bangkok in nov with my family.. SHOPPING SPREE!!! that's the only thing worth looking forward to right now, if i look further into the near future i see myself stuck in pathetic seremban sweating away in a hospital with no aircond .

my friend managed to get me a room in seremban for 140bucks. quite a deal, although i'll be stayin with 2 other medic students. they're guys by the way, and from i heard nerds. i hope they don't get a culture shock when they see me. i'll be sharin my bathroom with one of them (the bathroom is attached to both our rooms) and i hope nth embarassing will happen.

oh yeah, the other thing im lookin forward to is having my girlfriends back for summer!!! although i won't be in pg most of the time, i'm really dying to see u. so u girls better make plans to pay me a visit in kl..