i know its been a long long time but my internet provider decided to go bankrupt and deprived me of internet connection. that explains my absence and the detachment from civilisation, lol.

anyway, im back in pg. despite being the faithful penangite, i really need to bitch about the traffic problems in the island. it's driving me up the wall. cien yang picked me up at 7 and we went to zoo road to pick willaim up to head back to the penang bridge. this journey took 2 hours this morning. 2 hours can get me from kl to ipoh dee u know!!! just from this point, i really dread returning to penang to work. i can't imagine how many packs of fags i've to smoke and the amount of stress i have to endure before reaching work.

today is my first day of industrial attachment and i was late. supposed to be there at 8.30 and we were more than an hour late. mostly it was because of the jam in the island, but a portion of it was due to us getting lost in sungai petani. as if things are not bad enough for us and imu's name, another uneventful thing happened.

basically we were briefed about the company right before lunch. then lunch was the worst food anyone could ever imagined, i can't remember when i last tasted such awful food. my friend resorted to eatin white rich with beansprout and egg. and he didnt even finish half of the portion.

after lunch, we were so darn free coz they put us with the HR department. they didn't give us anything to do so we just spent hours in the conference room. after some time, we were getting sleepier and we just slept in the room. next thing i know the clerk came in and i woke up listening to her saying 'GUESS WHAT? THE MD CAME IN AND SAW ALL OF U SLEEPING!!' then he asked her why are we all sleeping? don't we have anything to do? OMG.. things are just so bad...

in the end of this stupid attachment, we actually have evaluation forms for them to fill in. i can anticipate what kinda results i'll get dee judging from the first day. tmr i can't afford to be late anymore, have to be there before 8 and i'm doing R&D with the MD. sheesh...

my life has been in a mess lately. so many things happened, and they're not happy events. most of them are things that pull me down further. and then this. but it's a good thing i have this stupid work to dread, at least it'll put my mind off things.

penang has always been my home however far and however long i've been away from home. it's 3 years since i've left it for kl and every trip that i make back home never failed to make me long for more. but lately, things have been really different. suddenly, i felt so alone and detached.

at first it seemed to be because of the friends factor. all along whenever i'm back there's mei and she fills my time like 80%. but mei's been away for 4 months, and during the 4 months i was still able to cope. maybe i had my bro back then? i dont know, i was still happy comin back and all. but this time around, its so fuckin depressing.

today i went to queens to watch resident evil and i got lost in the mall lookin for the cinema. i spent quite some time exiting at different levels and attempting to get to the other end etc. they were having some construction work goin on and they cordoned a huge section at the 3rd floor. but i think i spent more than 15 mins getting lost. that made me think, will i have such prob in kl? a huge NO. i had no problem even with the new malls like pavillion and the gardens .

then audrey and i were talkin about penang and how we felt so kl when we're back. and we started lookin around at the crowd and we felt so out of place. you don't see the kinds of faces which u normally see in kl, i dont know what happened to the ppl in penang. suddenly i saw damn alot of lala sch girls like the ones u see in sungai wang.

i dont know why i became so judgemental, but i don't feel welcomed back in pg. i can't wait for my attachment to end so that i can go back to the comforts of my kl life. don't get me wrong, i'm very much a proud penangite. deep down inside, penang is still a very dear place to me. but for now, i just cant wait to get myself out of this place.

p/s: resident evil was good. lol. next on my list will be chuck & larry.. anyone interested?

for those who want to watch my cheerlead, click http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2ErZ38imeA just for you to know, we kinda screw the front part up coz we couldnt hear the music and the cheer was too loud and it kinda drowned it. haha, im trying to clear my name here. lol. i'm one of them. oh, one important task.. spot me! then i'll tell u which is me. don't expect too much kay? we did badly in the competition, 5th out of 7 teams. this is the first time i'm actually blogging about the competition, after so long. i needed time to get it off me, cried like a cow after it. didn't expect us to did this badly. anyway, the past is past.

i'm done with my industrial training! lol. after 2 weeks of waking up at 6 am everyday and reaching home around 7 plus every night (at times we go later and come back earlier though), i finally get my well-deserved holiday

bro came back yesterday, we went to glo with his friends. the usual kakis la. this year, there isnt any raya feel. i dont know about u ppl, but u dont feel the festive feeling anymore. even the clubs are dead. upr also quite dead. it's like a normal weekend, in fact, less ppl then normal weekend. i went to starbucks in egate just now and it has less than 20 ppl (outside and inside). even old town has a lot of empty tables on the OUTSIDE. god knows what happened to the crowd. 

oh ppl, go watch chuck & larry. it's hilarious!! seriously, highly recommeded!

i'm finally back in kl. came back yesterday with my bro and surprisingly, it wasn't jammed. heard that someone started driving from 4pm and reached kl only at 1am the day before. rayaholidays or any other festive holidays for that matter never fail to cause jam in msia. for ppl like me, who study/work out of their hometown, going back during festive seasons are dreadful. all because of the jam. my bro and i was talkin about it and he suggested that msia build a bullet train like the one in japan. haha, sounds good right? don't think it's gonna happen in another 10 years at least.

study break is for studying/preparation for exams. but i cant bring myself to do it, no motivation at all. i really wonder what's going on in the minds of other ppl, those who's motivated to study all year round. i'm not screwed up, i still wanna pass my papers and all. but wanting to do it, and to actually do it are very far away. i know for a fact that alot of ppl started studyin when i had my industrial training (half of them did it last sem). sigh. i'm so damn bored.

look on the bright side, i actually cleaned my bathroom today. the last i checked, it was months ago since it was cleaned. lol. i'm lazy, yes. i dont have the time, yes. chores are really funny u know. its very hard to actually start doing it, but once ure doing it.. its not that bad afterall. make me feel like i've accomplished a huge task. lol.

been readin novels after novels. and i read one today which i know will have a deep impact on me. i'm sure you've heard of adeline yen mah, i've heard of her name long time ago but only did i read her book today. it wasn't her autobiography that i readt though, it was a thousand pieces of gold. i'd nvr imagined that someone like me would actually read this book, but i did. and for once, i really wished that i could read and write chinese. it took me thru a journey of self-discovery and yes, i feel more chinese after this. and no, i still can't read and write chinese. lol.

next on my list would be falling leaves, her autobiography.

p/s: i think this is the most boring post i've ever submitted. somehow i feel like, that's somethin that's stoppin me from writing my feelings. i just can seem to express myself.