first of all, i'd like to wish LEE MEIHUI and JANICE CHENG a happy birthday!! jan: hope u had a great time with all ur plans u told me. bday full of bruises.. lol. update us on how it went kay? and sorry i forgot the kiss.. lol. to mei..

mei: don't know how 'happy' this birthday is to you sayang, but i wish and hoped that you did enjoyed urself albeit what happened last night kay?? *great big hug* so many things happened that night, it;s like a series of unfortunate events.. whatever happened last night stays there, i'm in no mood to talk about it. and i dont want things to get out of hand, all i can say is everything has been settled. all the diff probs. but i think i've got to make a short trip back to kl soon, kind of worried and all. but i dont thin my parents will be happy with that idea considerin i just got back from kl on fri and they barely see me even if i'm in penang. sigh.

on a lighter note, the surprise went well on friday for certain ppl. liting and i drove back to penang and we got stuck in the stupid jam and the best part is we took 5 hours!!! normally it takes about 3 hours for a car to reach, and we took 5!! imagie if we took bus?? it'll prob take 7-8 hours and tickets were sellin like hot cake. and along the way we witnessed an accident. there was a standstill along the tunnel in perak and cars were comin quite fast and all of a sudden everyone was  jammin on their breaks. but this particular car was comin super fsat from behind and we could hear the tyres screeching for like 5 secs (no joke) right before a loud bang was heard. and we could see black debri flyin and rollin across the road to the other lane. all of this happened to the cars right behind ours, so we could actually be involved in a few cars pile-up but thank god nth of that sort happeend..

hmm.. back to the surprise, i think i'll leave this to the bday girl to share. lol. anyway, im so admn fuckin sick. i sneeze like an average of 50 times per day. and i lost count of how many packs of tissue i used. argghh.. hate this feeling.

been so darn bored at home today, watched like 3 movies and 2 series? lol. waht is a sick person supposed to do huh? i really dont know, but i can tell u that tmr ain't gonna be the same anymore!! been so tired and sick of sitting around doing nth, my mind is subconsciously tellin my immune system to quickly buck up and do its job. haha, though the medicine i've been takin does contribute to it as well i guess. been given 12 paracetamol 500mg tablets, amoxycillin (antibiotics), chlorphenaramine (antihistamines) and a bottle of thymol gargle by the doc at this clinic next to grandma;s hse. guess how much i paid for all these??? lol.. ppl GUESS!!!

i bet none of u can guess that it costs me a freaking ONE BUCK!! lol. went to this klinik kesihatan in town and u know what ppl? i seriously hope all of us, particularly chinese penangites to go to public hosp or clinics to consult a doc. i mean, the govt subsidised a HUGE amount of money to bring about a better health care system for us for a reason right? so USE it!! we're afterall the citizens of malaysia, why fork out 50 bucks when u can get the same treatment for 1 buck?

when i did my hospital attachment, i was exposed to the outpatient pharmacy in the paediatric ward oh hkl and i could see the medicine that was given out. we gave out BRANDED and fuckin EXPENSIVE medication like nobody's business, the prescriptions if for half a year, 3 months?? we're like giving out a stack of hundred ringgit notes to each patient. in fact, the kkind of medicine given by private clinics are actually generic medicine. and we paid more for generic medicine? so, yeah.. go visit a klinik kesihatan when u're down with a flu or something. why dont we benefit from it? lol. and we can save 50 bucks!

oh, i was home for more than 24 hours today!! lol. thanks to the stupid cold, i was in bed the whole of yest. sigh. anyway, ppl.. when i start blogging, i really hope u guys can motivate me by blogging a LIL more will u? im so darn enthusiastic and now i can feel the fire dying.. lol.

btw, my result is out. not to great i would say, but i'm not surprised la. though i was hoping for an A, it turns out that i have none. lol. anyway, fuck it la. its over anyway.

yesterday was one of the saddest moment in my life to date, i had to send my best friend off at the airport.  this someone is not just my bestie but also someone who's always there for me when i'm emo, always there for me whevener i'm bored, always there for me to layan me, always there to yumcha, always there to fetch me around, always there for me to fag together, always there to drink, always there to do anything your heart wishes for. she's the one person that i looked forward to seeing everytime i come back to pg besides my family, and now penang wont be the same without her. my trip back home will become less significant, it'll purely be family time. fullstop. the other person left is jo, which will be leaving for uk in sept. and then that's just about it. i just want you to know that we all missed u and like cows the day before u left, the morning before u left, the noon before u left, at the carpark before u came, at the airport, at the carpark after u left, in the car while driving aimlessly.. this is how much u mean to us and u fcuking bitch just left like that.

and now here i am sitting at starbucks in times square, blogging about my feelings and trying hard to hold back my tears. hope u liked the scrapbook we made for u, there are tears all over them. and i can see sern online and i know u're at his place but both of u too busy 'catching up' that u all are ignoring me and ting. lol.

after all the cryings, our eyes were so swollen and tired. and i've to freakin open my bloody eyes and try to stay awake the whole journey back to kl. reached home at 2.30 int he morning. lol. then had to wake up at 7.30 today. hope u're adapting well in melbourne and stop dreaming. wake up!! you've got to look for a place ot stay, get a phone line and start working! lol. no more dreams wei, fairy tale ended dee. now it's the beginning of life, the reality. and the truth is, no matter what.. we will always love you *hugs*

i'm kinda sleepy now but yet i'm gonna blog. shows how dedicated i am to submitting my entry, i deserve some kinda recognition dont i? lol. just got back from queens with jo and ting, we watched fantastic4. it's recommended!! though the ending a bit sudden and as jo put it 'tipu one' lol. we had dinner at some malay stall by the seaside next to gold coast and their sotong crispy is nice! lol. u dont get to eat it. haha, im so mean. we ordered damn banyak then halfway eating our beloved ting asked me what time is it and i told her it was 9.20 and she went like 'the movie's now!!' and we gobbled up everything as fast as we could and in less than 5 mins we were making our way to the car dee. then jo drove on the opposite direction and then there were cars comin in, scary. lol. but it wasn't her fault coz they closed down the other side, but still dangerous.. somehow we managed to got to queens on time and were rushing to the cinema. and the gsc workers were laughin at our antics sigh, how embarassing..

and when we got to the cinema, the lights were still on, the doors were wide open and the occupancy was about 10 %? it turned out that the movie was at 9.40 and not 9.20, sigh. all of us suffered from indigestion and were panting when we settled down on our seats only to realise we're god damn early! had to sit thru a LOT of stupid commercials.. thanks to ru ting dearest. lol.

anyway, today my dad's long time old friend dropped by and had quite a long chat. omg. he's damn funny.

him:hi sharon. how are u? got bf dee ar?

me: hey uncle. haah. none la

him: serious? are u sure or not u dont have?

me: really one la..

him: confirmed? if u really dont have then i want to introduced my son to u. he's in melbourne uni doing engineerin.

me: (thinking omg *slaps head*) laughes..

him to my dad: ur daughter really no bf ar? how come leh?

my dad: no la.. alot of guy friends la. but no bf. not the time yet.

him: oh, i'm keen in makin her my daughter-in-law la..

then he looks at me and said: be my dil very homia one, i treat u like friend only..

me: (this guy is crazy!!!! omg, what's my dad gonna say? my dad keeps talkin about this guy as in how successful he is and how well the kids are doin last time and i'm kinda scared my dad also chaotut)

my dad: haha, ur son cannot la.. he vegetarian, my daughter beef lover. lol

him: hahaha.. liek that cannot dee la. my 2nd son vegetarian and my 1st one married dee

me: phew *wipes forehead*

 yeah.. thats about it. i summarised everything into that dee. the actual conversation is very long-winded. kept talkin about it. psycho guy. though he's really really nice. and not to meantion super filthy rich. but still. madness! what kinda century is this? come to think of it, ting has similar experience with the US guy right? sigh, why are parents still scouting for spouses for their children nowadays? guess asians will always be asians, lol.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY PPL!! like any father's gonna read my blog. lol. we celebrated yesterday instead to avoid the traffic jam but i guess i didn't exactly avoided much also. went for buffet dinner at g hotel, it was normally priced at 46++ per pax. this is kinda surprising judgin that most hotels would do a 2 day father's day promo to rake in more profit, was pleasantly surprised when i was told it's 46 when i called to book.

i took mei's recommendation longg time ago, somehwere in this tabulas blog that it's really good. decided to treat my parents to a dinner at gcafe. summary of the international buffet:

what's good

• the service is excellent, from the front desk to the waiters/waitresses. they're always smiling and are always oh so pleasant.
• they have a vast choice of food (international buffet, duhh) and their texas  roasted chicken is very very, yeah i mean VERY tender with bbq sauce.
• they have SMOKED SALMON!!! lol. and soft shelled crab and even abalone. lol.
• the desert (miniature cakes) are very eye catching and they have apple crumble.. though its a lil too sweet for my liking
• there was a lengchai there! lol. some customer la, but he was really hot. was so disappointed when he left. lol. though all i got the entire night was just alot of eye contact. haha (note that this is under what's good category.hehehe :splat

what's not

• there was insufficient parking at the hotel, had to park at gurney. was very lucky to have found a spot, if not would have been really late for dinner
• parkin prob #2: it was raining! and there wasn't a proper covered walkway or something.
• erm, hope u guys wont be put off by this: my bro's cream of chicken had a worm in it (some caterpillar like vege worm)

guess that's about it. lol. complained about it and the manager and the chef came to apologise and all, they explained that it was their fault. bla bla bla. we were quite satisfied by the way they handled things la. so we said it's okay, we're just gonna forget about it. though i made them clear my soup as well, coz i dont think i can eat it. lol. later on they decided that they'll waive one person's dinner and on top of the three pax we're paying for we got a 20% discount.

then we paid with dad's citibank platinum card. and guess what? we got an additional 15% off. lol. actually i kinda made my dad pay coz it was written there wil be 10% off for citibank and hsbc cardholder. but 15% with citibank and hsbc gold/platinum. but we weren't sure whether they are gonna let us get away with it coz the dinner was already subsidised. lol. and guess how much is the dinner for the whole family?? 110 plus, lol! its like 50 % off , or maybe more. damn funny la.

and ppl!! u all should go to ghotel's chilli's coz they have nice staff! we were walkin past chilli's coz we need to go back to gurney and it was raining rather heavily. so we stood outside chilli's discussing whether we should just run over and we finally said 'oka, let's run'. then the manager or supervisor of chilli's appeared with 6 umbrellas and gave each of us one, then he accompanied us over and collected out umbrellas and went back. how nice right? we weren't even dining there, we were merely walking past their restaurants. then my dad told him 'we'll come back soon to dine here or something' lol. nice guy...

oh yeah ppl, watch just like heaven starrin reese witherspoon.. it's one of the best movies i've ever watch, nothing intellectual or very moving. it's... i dont know, it's just nice. a love story, lol. i'm a sucker when it comes to these kinda lovey dovey thingy, but yeah.. it's damn nice.

im fucking bloody pissed right now. blogged super panjang lebar on my ipoh trip and then it's gone. im giving up, fuck u tabulas. im gonna go to sleep. damn u.

guess waht. for the records, this is the 2nd time in a row that my entry went missing. and i terpressed the backspace button. but its the one on ur keypad. damnit! guess all of us kena cursed or soemthing. sigh.. forget it. back to my entry:

today marks the frist day of my 3rd year as a pharmacy student and i can proudly say that this itself is an achievement. yes, i know i haven't graduate yet. but to come this far (not being kicked outta the course), is already a blessing. i know i've been complainin damn much and this must have annoyed some of u or mayb u think that im exaggerating or makin a fuss outta nothin, but seriously dont send ur kids to pharmacy! at least not bpharm by imu.

class started at 10.30 today and ended at 5. and they're all briefings and briefings, firstly bout how we did for our finals last year, followed by a briefing for problem based learning then about our portfolios. damn boring, and my classes for this semester ends at 5 or 6. so fcukin stressed out when i saw the damn timetable. i HAVE NO LIFE!! i screwed the briefing, and finished my book 'a walk to remember' today. im so happy i came across the book in the library. needless to say, i cried buckets when i flipped the last page of the book. sigh...

for the first time i'm kinda reading ppl's blod. as in strangers or better put 'famous bloggers's blogs. and one particular one really touched me, not exactly by what she wrote. more on what kinda person she is, i wouldnt exactly use the word touched here. it's more like i have developed a sense of admiration towards her, screw xiaxue-the-narcissist who's so damn bimbotic but we all still read her blog coz its entertaining. come to think of it, all bimbos are entertaining in a way (even anatole mimicks them, lol. and it was goddamn funny).

this girl i'm talkin about, i came across her blog from reen's page. she's scarlett ting (www.joewei.net) and she's a single mother. i thought she was my age when i started reading, then i discovered she has a daughter (nicknamed minibean) and then i discovered about her anonymous ex partner (minibean's dad). and how it was all just sex to him. or so it seemed (this is what i assume from her blog). but she carried on and gave birth to her

this got me thinking, if i really had a fling with some guy. let's say this really dropdead gorgeous hunk and i got pregnant. would i keep my baby or go for an abortion? (put the religious & ethical issues aside)

be a mum (only under these circumstances)

1. if the baby's dad and i are together (not like a fling or something)

2. if the baby's dad and i are not on good terms i have to be working and earning my own money. i dont wanna depend on my aging parents to take care of their grandchild on behalf of me

which means:

abortion if

i'm still studying or unemployed or can't put food on the table for myself. i wouldnt bring my child into the world if i cant provide a comfortable life for him/her.

guess that's me la. sorry if i offended anyone esp on religious or moral issues. this is my own reasoning.

p/s: perfect stranger damn good movie! go watch

transformers!! autobots!! lol. i'm so glad that i watched it on the first day. the graphics are so cool, really impressed by the way they transform man.. rushed back just in time for class and through out the whole endocrine class kept thinking about it. lecturer talked about autocrine and my mind interpreted as autobots. autocrine =  autobots when she was talkin about some hormones (Eg. PTH = NBE1) those who watched will know what i'm talkin about, if not i know all these are greek to u. so u should watch it!!

throughout the whole lecture we were so giggly about it. the thought of optimus prime in the shiny chrome truck..wow. and of course there's bumblebee in his camaro. lol.

i've been such a good girl ever since my semester began. it;s still the first week and i've started on my assignment! lol. wanted to do it yesterday and guess what? i don't have microsoft words or any of the microsoft office. reformatted my notebook last sem and cleared everything, so had to get the damn cd before i could start working. lesson learnt: it's a good thing that we start early. at least you wont sit down and cry if you can't get the software there and then.

due to my short concentration span, i think i did less than 10% of my first portfolio (i have 6 alltogether mind you). and i havent done any research for the rest of the questions for the first one. realistically, it;s less than 10% work done. sigh.

anyone knows what happened to tracy? she used to update EVERY SINGLE DAY. too busy living the life she wanted- that of a taitai? lol. i guess her dreams came true, even for a few weeks la. lol. get ur bimbotic ass back here and let us know what's going on with u wei

oh, somehow i'm in cheerleading. don't ask me how. all along the mpharm are invovled in it, and somehow they split pharmacy teams into two this year. and they did it the last time, so this time around we have to participate. the worst part is we're the DEFENDING CHAMPION. so if we suck this time around, really no face man. and seriously, there's a HUGE tendency for us to suck.