havent blogged in awhile.. but things arejust soo scary.. just one week and so many things can happen, tracy and dicken.. reen and her probs *hope everything will turn out fine for u kay?? *hugs** tracy, will continue our conversation some other day.. sorry for cutting it short that day..

so, i finally got my internet connection at home. they came to fix on wed, which was soo damn surprising coz according to my friends they always drag and postpone the whole thing. last time my friends had to call like 5times to get them come. and they cant make it. then when they finally came, they didnt bring the modem. and so on. my impression of them went down the drain dee, so i decided to call before hand. manatau they actually called before on mon to set an appointment with me. haha, i guess im just lucky. anywya, having internet at home can be so distracting.. dah la i dont have time to study and all. with internet i stay up to dont know do hat also. fuck man.

imu cup just started, which means ill be busy going for matches and all. imu is undergoing extensive renovations and our basketball court was demolished. so, now all the matches are in the golf club. which is a real inconvenience. sigh, but all my friends are in the team. esp the guys in my gang, so i cannot afford to miss any matches or they'll kill me. anyway, they're really our pride and joy. didnt know these ppl look so good playing basketball.. haha, and theyre state players and what nots somemore.. all the other girls from other batches go crazy when they play.haha. anywya, im back in pg. sigh, currently in starbucks with my bro, cuz, nephew and friends.. my nephew is soo damn adorable.. he's only 5 and he hangs out in starbucks!! not some playground u know.. has his own toys *notebook, nokia n70, psp, etc* kids nowadays are sooo spoilt.. he's like a typical teenager with a laptop playing online games.  haha..

i've been slacking for a while.. in the sense of blogging. been reading other ppl's entries but too busy to write mine, or maybe a lil lazy as well. til i was reminded that my blog has been left like this for a while, so i guess i shall do it now. had been studying my ass of for my natural products test, not exactly that hardworking as compared to my peers.. but compared to sharon's standard, i've never been this hardworking. imu is really stressful, i can't understand why my course is so crazy. and i dont remember how it feels like to get an A anymore, most of the time im just hoping that i pass my test. doing this course really makes me feel im intelectually challenged, i'm like the dumbest person in class. arghh, and its not like im slacking and not studying.. i am, but its just that i go out as well. i mean for all my life i always study and have fun but i still manage to get my grades. now? its like i have to choose between my grades and social life, i cant have both. im like one of the few ppl which have classes from 9-5 every single day, and it's filled with portfolios, reports, logbook, presentations, interviews etc. its not like i dont have these to do, just come home at 5 and can do anthing i wish.. nd i still have to study for my tests!

im emotionally and mentally drained, at this time of the sem i'm usually at my lowest point. this is when i look back to pg, think about my family, rufus, blex and everything that is really important to me. it's the thought of going home soon that keeps me going.. it's not like i dont have friends in kl, i do.. they're really nice, but all of us are equally busy.  talking about that, po leen has been really sweet. hehe the other day we were going to wtch the finals for basketball, then she was comin to get me. we were on the phone earlier and i told her, 'okay im going to eat my bread see u later'.. then when she came to pick me up, she passed me a luncheon box. then i asked her 'whats this for?' she was like 'its for u.. u were eating bread only' haha.. actually, bread can be filling as well, and i was really full dee..

but its the thought that counts right?? she cooked sphaghetti, haha.. i was so moved, its like all these while i feel that it's not easy to find friends u can really trust out of the blex circle.. but i guess she just proved me wrong.. erm.. i kinda realised that she reads my blog as well.. ahha.. but poleen: if ure reading this, yeah.. thanks for being a real dear friend.. and for listening to all my prbs in sch.. haha and also for stressing out for me on behalf of my troublesome life.. and sorry about dragging u into some shit.. u know what.. *hugs*

anyway, our basketball team are the champions..haha we managed to win sem 3 medic.. last year we lost to them in the finals, we're really damn proud of the basketball team.. i;ve never felt soo excited and kancheong about a match before.. screamed like hell.. haha. but the guys from medic sem 3 are quite good looking.. my friend was crazy about the malay guy in the team, typical kl malay.. later going to watch futsal finals.. the girls are playing, hopefully they'll win la..