haha, finally i blogged.. i know... sigh, ive been busy.. actually its just an excuse.. i had no mood to blog, thats more likely.. i went thru one of the most depressing moments last month, and i didnt really wanna talk about it.. i was just hoping that ill grow out of it.. i know i owe u ppl an explanation, whatsoever.. but not now, im sort of in a rush.. my friend is waiting for me to go home .. eheh.. im glad everyone is doing well.. reen: nice dress.. really, some of my friends saw ur dress when i was reading the blog and they were like 'sooo gorgeous'.. ahah..

mei: i got nth to say to u.. have been seeing u like 3 times a day.. ahah... and have been talkin to u alot..

ting: hope ure feeling better now.. if anything, give me a call kay?

jo: get ur ass down to kl soon!! we've got everything planned out dee.. ap: thanks... i know we didnt really talk about it, but i know u care.. hehe... oh yeah, i didnt get the sony n1 coz it wasnt that good.. i got an olympus 800 i think.. anti-shock one.. so when ur hands are shakin, (i soo mean shaking vigorously) the pics are still damn clear and chunted.. 8 megapix.. haha..

jan: thanks as well, *hugs* im glad ure having fun..

ying: thanks for meeting up with me in sushi.. hehe, hope u have fun in kuching.. and i shall pray for ur uni..

tracy: looks liek ure having a lot of fun in perth.. am glad that ure doing well as well

shiang: i dont know whether she still reads the blog.. i havent heard from u in ages..!

ann: i havent heard from u in ages as well.. sigh, but ure excused.. i know medical sch is cRAZY

did i miss anyone out?? and to those ppl who visits my blog, ahha.. im finally bloggin..

muffy: when are u comin back again?

im damn stressed out now.. i just had my test... ORGANIC!!!! and i really didnt study.. only studied one day b4 when i actually had like 5 days off.. ahah.. thanks to mei, haha.. we're just soo screwed..

sern: if u read my blog, thanks for everything.. haha..

i havent blogged in soo long that i dont knw what to say.. ahah.. my friends bugging me dee.. will update soon

ive got a free period, and ive already printed my stuff .. so i guess i should blog!! haha, i went shopping yesterday!! went to klcc bcoz mambo has a sale, AUDREY wanted to go actually.. its so weird coz usually she doesnt shop, and wehn i get a call from her askin 'eh, u wanna go klcc? mambo got clearance sale?' i jumped at the opportunity, coz i wanted to buy my pencil case.. fyi, i was still using the pencil case which ting bought for me from aussie.. but got holes dee bcoz i stuff alot of stuff inside, it expanded and expanded til got holes :sad: so today im using my new pencil case.. yeay!!! mei: i finally bought it.. ahah

mambo!!!! GREAT SALE!!! the shop had discounts up to 80%!! i wanted to get swim suit there one, coz they have really nice bikinis.. but wehn i went there, i was disappointed.. the sizes are WAY too large for me, sigh.. then got not much choice as well, so i bought a sweat pants, 2 tops and a bag.. im really in love with the pants even though its not like a really great deal.. the original price was 175 then got 50 off, so it as like 87 or something.. i bought it for my gym!!! so, im gonna use it for like a month only and itll be kept away.. i mean, i really wanna wear it but where to?? i cant wear to classes!! i cant exercise in it coz itll be too hot.. i prefer shorts, but my gym is air-conditioned.. so its nice to be in pants

oh, did i tell u guys i signed up for gym?? i think i told jan and reen and mei... ahah.. i signed up for california fitness in midvalley for a 6 weeks, its by jackie chan.. they were having some promo and guess how much im paying for 6 weeks??? RM 38!!!! damn cheap right?? not for a month, but 6 weeks!! even though i wont be going for 2 weeks coz ill be in pg and i have 1st year exams.. its still damn cheap right?? my body has been aching since like forever, and my instructor is crazy!! u should have seen his body, my god.. he's really nice though, but he thinks im like super old.. aud went first for the evaluation, then must enter the age.. she was like 23, and u guys know how she doesnt look like 23.. then i went, he asked me 'how old are u?' i said '19' then he turned around and smiled,'seriously, how old are u??' i was like "im 19!!! u think im lying???' then he laughed and went and checked my form.. then he went like 1987..hmm.. eh, ure 19!!! i was like 'YEAH!!! why would i be lying/???' he laughed and said ' i thought u were at least 20" as if 20 and 19 has a HUGE difference like that.. ill be 20 iin less than a year la.. damn funny la him.. so i made a conclusion.. he thinks im old because aud went first... and she was a surprising 23year old.. so he expected me to be 23.. or older.. ahah./.. 2ndly, my haircut made me look older.. sometimes its quite depressing to see myself as older.. dahla i wear quite formally to go to class, then now i look old.. so i really feel old..

okay la... i better go now.. going for my lunch dee.. my uni pshyco one.. lunch time is 1245.. but the whole world eats at 11 coz by 12, theres no more food.. sigh, ill be going to gym tonight... i hope i dont kill myself there.. oh, the gym is damn cool.. they even have a swimming pool, jacuzzi and basketball at the outdoors... damn kewl.. and the sauna is soo damn nice.. ahha.. im in love.. it makes u feel like ure damn fit when ure inside u know, haha..

hey, tracy.. happy 20th birthfday.. hope u have a lot of fun... and make sure u get pissedd drunk.. ahha take care

okay, ppl.. on friday, i was not feeling well.. my head was throbbing like mad the hwole morning, and it got slightly better by lunchtime.. so i didnt give much thought about it.. i had quite a hearty meal for lunch, then everything seemed okay.. so i actually went for my lab, had to stand and listen to the lecturer going thru the procedures of the experiment.. as it went on, i felt raelly bad.. felt like throwing up, as if theres a tsunamai going on in my stomach.. that stupid briefing went on for like 45 minutes, was just praying for him to shut the hell up.. wehn he was finally done, i went abck to my place.. while i was walking to my table, my vision was blurring and everything was spinning,.. managed to reach my table and sat on the stool.. i nearly fainted.. seriously!! i cant bliv when was the last time i felt like that, i remembered lsat time in sggs during our 1 hour long assembly, i had that before.. but that was early in the morning with the food.. or PJ, but that was exercise with no food as well, i mean... no glucose ma.. but this was after a meaL and a big one as well.. gosh..

then my friends were soo sweet.. they did the experiment.. i mean most of it.. all i did was just sit down and wrote the report.. ahaha.. in the end we ended up takin pictures and doing shit la.. friday was my gym day.. but i really felt damn fucked up and my body was quite hot, so i decided not to go.. coincidently, aud didnt feel like going either.. so we went to sunway to pick phei shan up for dinner.. ohh, i saw vern, michelle and anna.. ap: i SAW anna... she's soo sweet/... haha.. we went for a proper dinner.. as in a set dinner la, complete with appetizers and desert.. i didnt have the appetite but they made me order it as well.. so i didnt quite finish the meal.. pshan said that i had high fever.. my eyes were red, as int he veins were dilated and all.. after that went for a few games of pool... haha, and i didnt feel so sick anymore.. haha... went home and slept without the air-cond under the covers.. sweat like a pig.. the next monring, my fever was gone.. yeay.. 

the next day we went for dinner in a japanese restaurant in bangsar shopping complex.. it was soo damn good, and quite reasonable as well. yeay, ahah.. found a nice jap restaurant.. then we went for habeas corpus, a play in actors studio.. it was quite good la, esp for the amount we paid.. oh, i saw shahrizat there as well. u know the minsiter? she went for the play, she's really nice.. after that we went to zouk.. ahah.. zouk was okay.. i thought they will be playing r&b but mana tau that day was techno.. so in the beginning damn sucky la.. after that this dj from uk came.. his name is haliwell i think.. he's soo good.. for someone who's not a fan of trance, i really liked his stuff.. u know how these techno stuff sounds the same after some time? but his was really good.. started going to the dancefloor and danced.. one thing about zouk is, there are alot of malays.. seirously, majority are malays.. but theyre rich malays la..

and theres this guy that came dancing with me.. at first fine la, i danced with him.. then he started holding me and moving very close to me... i backed off and told him 'chill' coz he was practically shoving his thing towards me... then fine.. we continued dancing and suddenly he just cupped my face and pulled towards him.. thats IT.. i freaked out.. ahah, for a second, i thought he was gonna kiss me kay?? but he didnt la, he pulled me closer to talk to him, i dont know whether becoz i backed away or what.. and i realise.. kl ppl loves to wear shades in the club.. theres soo many of them, and the worsp part is they think its cool or something.. shits man.. sigh, i cant wait to go back and club!!

its been so long since the last time i blogged from the comforts of my home.. no longer need to be wary in uni, where kaypo ppl keep peering into ur monitor at the corner of their eyes while trying hard to act as if they arent so nosy.. sigh, posers.. if they would open their mouth and ask for my url or something i would happily give them anyway, not like i know them.. but it just sucks that ppl are being soo.... whats that word?? sigh. but most ppl are like that right//?? i am as well, when i see a girl wearing something really ncie... i feel soo temped to ask her where did she get her stuff from, but its just so weird coz we're complete strangers.. arghh, these are the lil junks that fill up my head these days.. looking at things at a completely diff perspective.... i think im aging..

come to think about it, a lot of ppl have been making these comments about me.. my DAD actually asked me to take off my specs last night when i was in the hosp visiting my grandma.. i was so uncomfortable that i didnt, i told him he can see me without my specs at home or something.. coz my uncle and aunt was there, so its just so weird.. then in the car my dad told me that i look diff, firstly i lost weight.. which i dont think so, my mum thinks im completely normal.. then he said my face became more angular or something, but basicallly it leads to 'ure no longer my lil girl.. uve grown.. into adulthood' or some crap liek that, i was soo insulted, i dont know why.. i always wanted to grow up faster, u know that kinda stuff.. but, lately aLOT of ppl have been tellin me the same thing.. and it HIT me, and i dont wanna grow old!!! i wanna be 19 all my life.. in the end, i just shrugged it of by saying that it's my haircut... which is TRUE... my dad asked me to do something about it.. i think it hurts him as well to see that im no longer the girl who will manja with him and etc...

did i tell u guys that my grandma fell down and broke her pelvis? i was in kl, it appened on tuesday i think.. but then she took aspirin so she couldnt go for the operation til friday, i went to see her last night and also this morning.. last night she was just soo blur, i think shes on painkillers or something.. this morning we actually dropped by to feed her breakfast, coz shes really weak.. i just lost it this morn, i broke down soo many times.. i usually hate to visit ppl in hosp coz ull be soo bored to death and u dont know what to say to the patient.. esp my grandma who speaks in 'sinneng', a dialect which i cant understand.. but today was different, coz no one was around so me and my mum helped feed her breakfast. and it really broke my heart to see her lying there so weak to even move or anything.. and when we helped her drink her barley with a straw, she actually starting blowing bubbles into it.. coz she has difficulty breathing.. it feels like shes going back to the 'child phase', it made me realise that she is already 95.. fuck.. i never saw that..

when we feed her oats, she spit some back.. i dont know, tears were just flowing down as i cut her tablets to smaller pieces.. it just hurt so much.. suddenly im scared that she might just die or something. and my parents are asking me to spend every morning with her in the hospital..  and i soo think i should. even though we have HUGE communication problem.. shes acting like a kid sometimes.. sigh...