hey everyone, i miss u guys so much.. i miss our april fool's jokes, and the giggles and laughter. i don't know who to play a prank on now, rufus?? haih.. everyone seems to be going thru a tough time*paused to answer phone* ting called and told me that chern's grandma passed away suddenly.. i guess what i said earlier applies to him aw well.. nowadays, when we're sad its kind of hard to blurt all out like that. we used to go to sch the next day and just start complaining to the blex about everything, how our fathers scold us for nth.. how out mothers are not understanding and how irritating our bros were. but now, when im sad and pissed, i do call ting and mei sometimes.. but it's just not the same, its totally dIFfeRent. i was online just no when i suddenly thought of something *ting called again to tell me that chern wants her to call his mom to send her ting's condolences, she's freaking out*anyway, suddenly i wanted to recall the 10 things i hate about you soo badly. it kind of meant alot to me, it reminded me of ap and the blex.. liek how we were so crazy over it and all. i went to search for my planner which i once scribbled on, but i only found f5's. i think that was f4, i guess i lost it.. but i was so determined to get it right, so i went online.. so here goes...

i hate the way u talk to me and the way
u cut ur hair.

i hate the way u drive my
car.

i hate it when u stare.

i hate your big dumb combat boots and the way u
read my mind.

i hate u so much it makes me sick; it even makes me
rhyme.

i hate the way you're always right.

i hate it when u lie.

i hate it when u make me laugh, even worse when u
make me cry.

i hate it that u're not
around and the fact that u didn't call.

but mostly i hate the way i don't hate u. not
even close, not even a lil bit, not even at
all..

hmm, i haven't had enough sleep for the past few days.. my uncle and his wife came down from sing (the one with the 2 sons) anyone remembered? ap: u said his son looked like pck, eheheh. so we were kind of bz and must entertain them and all.. but thank god they went abck dee, but i still didnt get back my sleep yet. im so gonna sleep like a log later.. btw, li ting told me that her cuz is going back to jb next week for 2 weeks(she shares a whole apartment with her cuz) she asked me to go down and stay with her and all and she claime that her condo is haunted, but i told her what would i do when she goes to coll in the morn and all.. so i didnt bother much.. til i saw tan when i went to u2, today is her last day. she's stopping work dee and she said she met up with liting too.. basically she wants to go to kl but she has no friends to go down with, i guess u guys can conclude alreay la. we're going down to kl next week i think, but not really confirmed yet.. but actually whats there in kl ar?? shopping? esprit opening in gurney dee, im not very crazy over topshop and ms selfridge. wondering whether i should go....

i received a call from imu yesterday asking me to attend an interview on the 23rd of april, my parents won't be going dpwn with me though.. they will be bz so i'm going down alone, not exactly alone. my mum is worried even though i told her that i can arrange for liting to pick me up at the bus terminal or something, so i contacted tan.. remember i told u guys that i might be going down with her next week? she wont be free next week so maybe she can make it with me the following week,ie 20th. wanted to go down on the 21st but lt asked me to go down earlier and tan wants to stay longer, 21st is the prophet's bday.. i guess it'll be a holi for lt, maybe that's why she wants me to go down earlier. she'll be free to bring us around what, anyway tan hasn't confirmed with me yet.. though i really hope she can make it because my dad has a backup plan for me. he wants me to fly down to kl and stay with his friend in sunway which i havent's seen in a while, he had 2 daughters aged 19 and 17.. we used to be quite close when we were younger but  you know how things will be akward esp when theyre around ur age, but my dad doesn't seem to understand. sigh, anyone who's interested to go down with me?? mei?? prob going down on the 20th and leaving on the 24th, unless there's a change of plans

anyway, yesterday was rufus' bday u know.. he is 2 years old dee, 2 x 7 right? 14 years old to be exact. sigh, my baby is soo old dee.. by next year he'll be older than me, i really do not know what to expect when i leave pg later. who's gonna take care of him? who's gonna shower him etc? sigh.. okay la, will update some other time

okay, i came back from kl yest.. please do not ask me how did the interview go coz i really dont know.. hmm, they asked me to talk about myself and all and then they gave me a situation for me to solve etc. and the worst part is they told me they only want 120 people out of 300 over applicants, that's like 40%? sigh, hopefully i get accepted la. and those ppl there wear longsleeved shirt plus slacks plus tie to uni kay?? i was so shocked to see choo heng wearing that, i thought he was gonna attend dinner or soemthing.. and i realised that they have got their own dress code (like inti) and jeans are not aLLOwed!! i wonder what am i ever gonna wear, sigh. bt, ting ting comin back today right? her prom was last night and she said she wore saree, hopefully she had fun.. anyway, i watched ppl playing ice hockey in sunway pyramid. first time in my laugh im actually sitting at the changing room area watchin ppl i know playing, ahah.. not like i've known them for long, a few hours perhaps? my dad's friend's daughter's bf and friends are ice hockey players, so we watched them train. i can tell u that it's sooo dangerous, the putt can just fly out and hit ur head..

i met up with li ting in kl, i called her after the uncle dropped us at pyramid.. she's staying in ridzuan condo, so it's nearby. then we jalan jalan and she insisted that i should see her room, so we went back to her place.. that gal is crazy la, she's decorated her master bedroom with ikea furniture and ornaments like her grandfather owned it. her room is pretty big coz the apartment has only 2 rooms, hers with attached bathroom sumore kay? anyway, i asked lting whether she wants to follow me to watch ice hockey bcoz when that girl (sher lynn)called i was at lt's hse.. she said okay, so we went. then we went to meet her and went to the ice skating ring, we were waiting for quite a while bcoz they started late.. then ting asked me 'when are we going to watch movie? i was like 'huh what movie?' she said 'u said wanna watch what?' then i started laughing, she taught 'ice hockey' is a movie title. haih, damn funny la.. okay la, my mum bugging me to eat my spaghetti dy. nvr take my lunch somemor, damn hungry dee

im sooo fat!! seriously, i feel fat and i know im fat.. last week mei asked me to go hiking with her in bj then i told her BJ AR?? don't know can reach or not, hhehe. im getting fatter dee, that made her said 'then no need la.. i'm lazy also' because of that, we tak jadi hike. it shows how lazy both of us are, so today after lunch i decided to take the stairs up the 9th floor.. normally i can make it to my hse feeling a lil tired, that's all. but today, when i reached the 3rd floor i felt my legs weakening.. 5th floor they started to ache and when i got to the 7th, i was huffing and puffing. when i saw the number 9 i felt like fainting yet so relieved at the same time, that proved my point.. besides that, my CNY pants are so tihgt for me!! u can see the lines caused by overstretching them, and mind u they r not stretchable types. some sort of linen pants, im soooo sad.. theyre brand new u know i lost count of how many million ppl telling me how fat i am or how much wieght i've put on, sigh

anyway, yesterday was my 10th month.. that would make jan's 11th month not too long ago right jan? i still find it amazing how i managed to surpass my '2 months prediction', i mean like no one would ever thought that we'll go this far. not even me, only jess saw this coming.. thanks jess  anyway, he has been wonderful. oh yeah, we went to watch guess who? yesterday.. i think it's really funny, u guys should watch it. i felt like i could really relate to it in a way, (this movie is about inter-racial relationship) i think it's a good movie.. really funny and moving at the same time

well well well, last night was fun.. haven't really had an outingwith so many blex(actually it's only 50%) for quite some time dee, and i cant wait for ping and all to come back. remember ping u told me u wanted to go clubbing and krish wanted to bring u b4 u left for us?? til now i haven't gone clubbing with u, can't wait.. anyway, mei came to pick me up at 7 plus (thanks to ting) when she said she'll come at 6.30. mei had to wait for ting for half an hour at her apartment, then we went to check in at goodall something hotel.. it's like a budget hotel near chill out (mainly for a quickie) and when i told krish that i'm staying there he war horrified.. but it was clean and all so we didn't bother much because we just wanted a place to crash when we're knocked out.

then we went to gurney with the intention of watchingmovies but somehow we couldnt decide wat to watch since someone has watched something the others havent and vice versa.. i followed ting to aussino to get a buTterfly towel for cHern!! for his bday.. ahahahah then we met up with the others to go makan at 1901 after that we walked around and ended up at secret recipe to kill time. thus making me indulge in sinful food, sigh.. saw ashley and we had our girls' talk and took pictures (mei remember) after that we left for the club and got there at 11 i think. paid for our drinks and mei followed behind me and we entered, we were waiting near the entrance for the rest and no one came in.. then reen and jo came in and said they didnt allow ting to enter, sigh. then i went out to see her while mei waited in mambo (she's afraid that she can't get in later)  they didn't care whether ting has passed her 18th bday or not, as long as she's 87 they're not letting her in.. they saud she was underaged so i called krish and he said 'enter thru chill out' but we've already paid, so if we were to enter that way means we've gotta pay again. ting said she wanted to try her luck by changing tops with reen and try to get in thru mambo, so they went off to gurneu hotel and i went to see mei..

but that fellow recognised her! so we decided to get her in thru chill out, but she's afraid that they might stop her there.. that's when my cuz walked past, yeay~!~ i asked him to get her in coz he's really huge and big, so she went in with his friends and voila! all set to party. but that really spoiled my mood a lil, stupid asshole can't differentiate between 18 after bday or 17 or so.. but we did have fun la, so many funny things happened. this really short guy (he's shorter than me!!!) tried to dance with me. u should see the look on jo's face, we were laughing our asses off!!and there's my cuz and his dance moves, gosh... but my beige pants turned pitch black coz i did the clubs a favour by helping them sweep the floor, and i lost count of how many million ppl that step on me last night. but im looking forward to the next one with more ppl!! today i got up at 3 (my dad woke me up )  i was so lazy to get up, and my ass hurts.. okay, dinner time..