i haven't been doing much ever since graduation. it's not surprising at all since i'm an official bum. what does a bum do anyways? definitely nothing productive i believe, and that's exactly what i do back here in pg. first of all, not much ppl are in penang. even the handful that is in pg, they're either working or studying or busy with something. as far as i know, only jan and i are back here bumming.

met up with jan for coffee yesterday and we were talkin about how we spend our lazy days doing nothing. good for her, she has errands to run everyday. her parents will leave notes for her with a certain tasks everyday. what about me? all i do is eat and sleep and eat and sleep and the cycle goes on and on.

ever since i came back, i've encountered numerous occasions where ppl tell me i've become rounder. definitely a milder way to tell me i'm FAT. i'm so frustrated but there's nothing i can do! i wanna exercise but i can't find any willing partner to lose some pounds with me. i'm not even banking on losing weight, i'll be thankful as long as i don't pile on further!

my first attempt will be hiking on mon with jan! hopefully everything turns well, i don't know if i can make it to the top of the hill. hahaha, a bit ambitious for someone who's been sedentary ever since high school!

jan: i asked kash and she said yes to squash! so we can arrange something next week? i'll leave this to u since u have a squash coach bf i hope i won't be running around hitting the air and collecting squash balls!

MEI: all the best for ur exams kay?? go kick ass!!

the rest of the blex: when are u getting ur asses back to pg??

today is my written paper for my final exams. i'm so darn frustrated with myself, u know how it feels when u feel soo stupid u wanna kick urself real hard? that's how i feel right now. it's not like i do not know the answers to the questions, i don't know what i was thinking. i kinda just froze and when i got home and everythin replayed in my head and i realised i could have done so much better not failed. i do not know the results to my written exam yet but i there is a high possibility that i might fail. everything depends on my OSCE on wed, if i do well maybe.. just maybe i might manage to pull thru and graduate afterall

of all times, it has to be the finals. if i fail this time around, it means that i have to re-sit for it and miss the convocation with my batchmates. even if i do pass the re-sit, i will be attending convocation with students of other batches. not the ones i share classes with for the past 4 years, not those that understand the pain i went thru just to graduate as a freaking pharmacist.

i have a lot going on in my head now. apart from the stress from my exams, a lot of things happened to me lately. my friend crashed my car. i got called to see the dean. i was nearly brought to the disciplinary board. i got involved with some guy i shouldn't have. basically my whole life is in a mess right now, i just need to pick myself up and set everything straight again.

but then again there are decisions i made that i haven't pondered upon. i still have questions to be answered.

anyways, ying!! i saw ur dad in kl. haha. he was in capsquare. but he doesn't know me, so i din say hi. lol.. 

just got back this afternoon and i swear i felt like i've been drugged. the entire journey i couldn't keep my eyes open at all. there's one point we were reaching the r&r and i knew we were there d coz i opened my eyes for less than 1 sec and glimpsed the sign. but as the car was slowing down to park, i had to practically fight internally with my brain to make it open my eyes. omg. it was sooooo bad. sighs. anyways the journey back was.... i dont know, coz i was asleep 90% of the time. lols. but i had baskins! been a while since i binged on cheesecake icecweeam and it was heavenly *slurps. i didn't plan to get one, but the sun was scorching hot and i was half asleep and half sweating earlier. really had to give in to temptations!

i hibernated almost the entire day today, my body is screwed. i told myself to nap for 2 hours max coz i have a lot of assignments to do but i slept for hours, and the same thing happened.. i tried to make myself open my eyes but it didn't stay open for more than 2 secs each time and i drift back to sleep despite all the sms-es i received. haha, i'm such a pig man! btw, i'm home alone *sobs. kinda stinks to be alone during cny, esp when i was back in pg i was surrounded by ppl 24-7. even if i was home alone for like a few hours each morning i had rufus with me. ugh..

i don't know why am i complaining, actually i should be glad i have the whole hse to myself since my stupid fan broke and flew i've been fan-less. this is the best opportunity to camp in my living room and blast my music without worrying if it would irritate my hsemate, which is exactly what i'm doing right now. ahahha. dragged my comfy ceo chair out of the room, i've a feeling i might fall asleep on it anytime soon. ;p so typical of me, shites!

ok, enough of this crap. i think i should get back to work start on my work. love u ppl *blows kisse

Album: The Script (2008)


Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
saying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cuase If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"
I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
cuase you'll know it's just for you
Im the man who can't be moved

[Chorus] [2x]

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

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əвмąѕтəя says:

why u call urself bryan?

i did??

əвмąѕтəя says:

NOO

then??

əвмąѕтəя says:

feel like slapping u now hahahaha

ωəвмąѕтəя says:

u appeared in front of my house with ai ping

ωəвмąѕтəя says:

hiiii is bryan home??

ωəвмąѕтəя says:

............

«¤°~£î£ Ðêv‡£~°¤ » says:

really?

«¤°~£î£ Ðêv‡£~°¤ » says:

why was i lookin for bryan?

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əвмąѕтəя says:

my presentation on my research topic is finally over. now what? i've a passed onw big hurdle for the semester but there's a bigger one coming. THESIS. we'll never finish anything. there's nth for me to look forward this semester. NO SEMESTER BREAK! can u name me a course with no sem break? sighs. it's not like i have 3 semesters a year, i only have 2 and yet i do not have a sem break this sem 

i've already completed my lab work and presented my research topic. there's 3 weeks to the deadline for my thesis submission and i've only done 10% of my thesis i think. i know there isn't much time to do the write-up that sums my whole semester's worth of lab work but i need a break, like seriously. because right after i hand in my thesis, i'm supposed to start hospital attachment in seremban. whoever said that final year is easy must have had an affair with their lecturers or something. uggh..

looking on the bright side, i'm going back to pg this weekend! i can't wait to be home, relax and not worry about a single thing. although i seriously need to buckle up and get my dissertation done during this 3-week period. plus, ill  be going to bangkok in nov with my family.. SHOPPING SPREE!!! that's the only thing worth looking forward to right now, if i look further into the near future i see myself stuck in pathetic seremban sweating away in a hospital with no aircond .

my friend managed to get me a room in seremban for 140bucks. quite a deal, although i'll be stayin with 2 other medic students. they're guys by the way, and from i heard nerds. i hope they don't get a culture shock when they see me. i'll be sharin my bathroom with one of them (the bathroom is attached to both our rooms) and i hope nth embarassing will happen.

oh yeah, the other thing im lookin forward to is having my girlfriends back for summer!!! although i won't be in pg most of the time, i'm really dying to see u. so u girls better make plans to pay me a visit in kl..